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It’s been a while, longer than I realized until I noted the date on the last entry. November and December found me in a period of hibernation from online activity. But I am alive and well – physically, emotionally, spiritually – with some exciting changes afoot.

My relationships with my gods feel solid, even as the dynamics shift. On New Years Eve, I had the sudden urge to tear down and remake my altar for Lilith and Samael. It has a completely different flavor, and yet the energy remains distinctly theirs. As Lilith steps to the forefront, my dealings with the Norse figures in my life have slowed to a simmer. While muted, and even somewhat distant, the ties are there. I have no idea how long this period will last. I have a track record of declaring that I’ve finally deciphered The Master Plan, only to see the players chuckle and shift in the blink of an eye. I suspect I’m not meant to predict the future, only grope my way through the present.

The biggest reason for my absence here is that new ventures in the flesh are overruling communications and communities online. One new venture in particular…

Last year I became a guest speaker for the New York City based group Lilith’s Tribe. After a series of appearances and growing involvement, I have taken on the responsibility of leading and re-imagining the group. It recently was made clear to me that Lilith wants more rituals being done in her name, and this group will be the foundation of that. Beginning in late February, I will inaugurate the new Lilith’s Tribe as a diverse collective of devotees, brought together from various traditions and cultures. The group will facilitate monthly rituals (led, at least initially, by yours truly). Each ritual, working through a cycle, will focus on an aspect of Lilith, her story, or her lessons. I have that old familiar feeling of dread and desire when I think about this, which tells me I’m on the right track.

So, I’m rebuilding a tribe for Her. As you can imagine, this is demanding work. The last few months saw me meditating, scribbling, and working out the logistics of how this will happen. Some question marks remain, but a skeletal plan has emerged, including a new website with support/networking with other potential or existing local “tribes” not in the NYC area. Even if you’re not in NYC, I want to find ways to connect and build something around her. More information will be posted here as it becomes available.

In the future, I’m not sure how often I will write proper essays for this blog. I apologize to those of you who have been waiting patiently for my promised series on Samael. Every time I try to write it, Lilith takes my attention. For the moment, it seems it’s not meant to be. Perhaps he needs to be found and known by each in his or her own way. Perhaps I’m not the one to write publicly about him. In any case, he is worth seeking out. Dangerous, as all things non-human are, but worth it.

I will continue to correspond with people via email and offer long distance divination. Information about either of those can be found under the tabs at the header of this blog.

At the beginning of 2011, I dedicated myself to embracing my weaknesses. I pursued things I thought I couldn’t do, tried on roles I’d assumed wouldn’t fit me. Despite my lack of coordination, I began studying martial arts and now have a Green belt in Hapkido – next month I’ll be testing for High Green. Despite my lack of faith that I could manage both human and divine partners, I’ve made it through 7 months of this. Along the way, I discovered that this seemingly impossible arrangement has actually created more balance in my life. In the future, the risks only get bigger: I’ll be trying things that could very well fail, and fail big. But fear of failure is paralysis.

2012 brings a new challenge: the archetype of the Queen. She is meant to be my inspiration this year, my mystery to unravel. This should be interesting.

 

 

 

 

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